Christmas is near...

School is out, I can finally breath for myself again.

I got a kitten, he is really adorable. Azhar named him Tyraan =]

This is him sleeping on my chair. I think he likes to sleep on it because its soft...I want to buy a bed for him =D

But anyway, I hope everyone have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving people =]

To my Azhar, I hope you know how thankful I am to have you as my forever <3 I am also thankful to have my family...and my friends.

I mean, what else should I be thankful for anyway?

This is life.

西界

JJ Lin 林俊杰:

西界WESTSIDE

JJ's new "Killa" music video scares me tho. I mean I think its awesome but...aaweesommmely scary...

Jennifer loves the video. But I love the song and the lyrics. Well, new ideas are always welcomed, he successfully grabbed people's attention. I called my mommy and asked her if she's seen the new music video. As I was expected...she said, "Its not that scary, stop being a chicken". My mommy is like a freaking superwoman, she's not scare of anything...geez.

I want to reconstruct this blog...but I haven't had time to do it. I'll do it later.

**yawn** I am sleepy, going to sleep now...

My little brother Howard's poem =]

Howard
Happy, joyful, excited, and helpful.
Son of Tsan Shan Ma and Ching fang Tsai.
Who loves my family, teachers, and my friends.
Who feels happy when my family and teachers are happy,
excited and it is time for dismissal,
and is sad when war begins.
Who needs my parents to live right, my teachers to learn,
and a cozy house to survive.
Who gives love to family and teachers, cards to
people on their birthdays, and candy to friends.
Who fears snakes, murderers, and scary movies.
Who would like to see my sisters, my kindergarten teacher, and my grandpa again.
Resident of Houston, Texas.
Ma

I am sooo amazed by his vocabulary usage, its really different from the kids of his age. But hey, I taught him well =]

A series of Unfortunate events...

This week was hell....I don't know how I managed to get through it. Oh well, I did.

Two exams in a row, plus the extra stress when you KNEW that this is college and you don't' mess with the professors who will literally screw your grades over and just being...away from home makes you that much nervous.
Hectic...and at the end of the week, its almost...tedious. As much as me being "interested" in learning new knowledge, sometimes you just want to take a break from it all.

Hell...after all the hard work only to find out later on that my grandfather died. Great reward, don't you think? I guess sarcasm just won't do enough for me. I don't know how else to describe this week.

I am just going to use a very strong word...

I hate this week so much.

Maybe words can do more than just the word hate, but to make it short and quick, I guess that's the shortcut. Hate.

Because...how else would you describe this effing situation?

Miss you...

I miss it when we used to stick together to go everywhere and being together every second.

When are you coming home, Azhar?

Smile

There are lots of things that make me smile in the past. Well...not anymore.

I found that there are very few things that can actually make me smile now. I lost the smiling and laughing ability. When I mean smiling and laughing, I don't mean the physical ability, I mean sincerity-wise. I can smile, when people want me to or expect me to. I can laugh, when people want me to or expect me to. But those are not genuine.

You will probably wonder now, if I have sincerely and genuinely smiled or laughed recently. Yes, but very few. I think I am going through that college personality shift. I guess life isn't what I always thought it would be. When I was little, innocence told me that all people are nice, not as bad as daddy and mommy thought they were. Wrong. Not that I have people hurting me now, its just that...they are right. Human beings are selfish. Dad and Mom are right, people are evil.

Haha, you guys probably think I am negative. Don't get me wrong, there are good people in this world. However, like I said, whether they are sincere or not, its really hard to judge. Acting isn't such a hard thing, you know?

Growing up means facing reality and being realistic. I guess.
I envy little children.

But I am thankful for my roommates, my family, and Azhar, those people can actually make me smile sincerely and laugh genuinely. Thank God.